Slowing Down

So I was reading through some of my past blogs, and other things on my blog. I've changed a lot since even a few months ago. I think some of it is good, but I think I'm also changing somethings I shouldn't or at least don't need to.

I think between work and wedding plans I'm getting a little burnt out. I used to look at things so happily, and now I'm having difficulty focusing on the good in anything, but I think in a weird way, the reason this is becoming hard for me is because I'm not taking any time to just relax. And I think the wear and tear is just making me tired, and according to Dr. South, when you don't get enough rest it's difficult to be happy. So here's a list of things that I could potentially do (I say potentially because knowing myself, I'll turn it into some kind of assignment and add it to the list of things that I'm not doing):

Read... and read a book I LIKE. Not a book someone recommended me, or even a church book, or even scriptures. Read whatever I want to read. Even if it's something that everyone else thinks is lame.

Go for walks... maybe even take some bread to the duck pond and feed the ducks.

Sleep... weird concept. Why do people sleep again?

Watch a movie... curl up with my blankets and stuffed animals on the couch and watch whatever movie I want to watch. Maybe combine this one with the one right above it.

Write... as bad as I am at writing, it is very stress relieving. Even if it's just writing in my journal.

So now that I have a list of relaxing things to do. I also thought of other things that have been bringing me down slightly. No one is at fault, but I'm pressuring myself to "keep up" with others spiritually, and honestly, that's never a good thing. I progressed a ton more when I just decided to do things, and I didn't do them because I wanted to be "good enough" for someone else. And instead of letting my goals stress me out, maybe I should allow myself more time to do them. Maybe even ask others to help me by reminding me of them. Because mostly I'm just forgetful. Maybe I could try a little harder to remember them by putting notes up where I will see them.

I think most of all I need to stop and just breathe. I keep myself too busy. I don't have the time or energy to get anything done. My room is a mess and cleaning checks are Saturday. I need to do laundry and help out with the apartment chores, but because I run run run all day I never want to do anything else. So... I need to SLOW DOWN. Getting things done efficiently is good, but being happy about life is more important to me. Anyway... I guess I'm done ranting about stuff. Now that I've done my writing, I'm going to go sleep. Good night!