Sunday, September 25, 2011

All Things Will Be Revealed

You know, it's kind of hard to know something without being able to explain it. I think that part of living this life, though, is having to trust Heavenly Father without being able to explain to others why you think that way.

I think it's even harder with my friends. Sometimes you just want to say "because God says so!", but that argument never works because they always ask "where". Well most of the time my "where" is in my head after I asked, so all you can do is say "well ask Him yourself". It seems so sad these days that we're the only religion that believes in personal revelation, but I've met so many people who don't ask. Sure they ask about what school they should go to, when to have children, etc (which are all great), but I've met few who just straight up ask "What is the truth?" Because sometimes our church leaders don't match what the scriptures say exactly, so who do you go with? Go with God. The scriptures, leaders, and other sources can be wrong, but God isn't, and never will be.

But it's hard to do that because you can't just trust God. You have to trust yourself too. Because sometimes what is true for you in one situation, wasn't necessarily what someone in a different situation needed. And so you have to understand that it's ok to go against the grain sometimes. But it takes practice. Is that God telling you to skip church and go to your friends house, or is it just you wanting to do that? Because God does tell us to do things that most people say we shouldn't. Your friend could be hurt or alone and needing a friend. So you've got to practice.

But what's great is you can ask God that too. I had someone tell me once that you can ask God what a "yes" answer feels like. You can ask Him to just send you the feeling so you can recognize it more easily. We talk about different callings receiving revelation for those in their "stewardship". Well you are your own steward as well, and you deserve direct revelation from God. He may not tell you right away, but He will tell you. You've just got to do everything you can to show Him that you want to know.

I can imagine that once you've mastered this, it can be very liberating. Imagine living like the prophets of old. The ones who could walk into huge cities knowing that they'd probably be killed, but knowing that it's ok because God told them to do it. Then you can sit and smile at all those people screaming their heads off about whether or not God exists, or whether or not we should be LDS, or whether or not we should legalize gay marriage, or marijuana, or allow immigrants into our country. Because you already know the answer, and someday they'll know the answer too.

By the way, this isn't a post to tell everyone that if they disagree with anything I say then they are wrong. haha. Because God does give us all different answers too. As long as you are going with the answer God gave you, and I'm going with the answer God gave me, then we're good. Someday all of the truth of everything will be revealed, but in the meantime we just have to settle with the pieces God gives us. :D

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Love is Not a Fight/Fireproof

"Love is not a place
to come and go as we please
It's a house we enter in
then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
Work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter
in a raging storm
Love is peace
in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave;
May God send angels to guard the door
No, Love is not a fight
but its something worth fighting for

To some love is a word
that they can fall into.
But when they're falling out
keeping that word is hard to do

Love is a shelter
in a raging storm
Love is peace
in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave;
May God send angels to guard the door
No, Love is not a fight
but its something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
but demand we give our all

Love is a shelter
in a raging storm
Love is peace
in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave;
May God send angels to guard the door
No, Love is not a fight
but its something worth fighting for.

Cause I Will Fight For You
Would You Fight For Me
It's Worth Fighting For."
-Warren Barfield

This is the concluding song in a movie called Fireproof: one of my all time favorite movies. If you're married, were married, want to be married some day, etc this is a movie worth watching. ;D

Friday, April 8, 2011

Freedom is like a testimony. Some are born with ease of opportunity. Some struggle to receive it, but battle until they do. Some take for it for granted and then lose it. Some have it and cherish it and keep it. Both are given by God. Both are something we are responsible for.

But the biggest thing they have in common, is they reside in you. No one else can get them for you. No one else can keep them for you. You have to decide if you want them, and you have to seek them out. Otherwise, you will never have either.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011


So it has been a really long time since I've updated. So apparently I'm going to go from ultrasound photos to pictures of a two month old. haha. Whoops.

Well school is almost over. Thank heavens. I've officially gone from 3 classes to 1. I'm actually starting to get caught up too! I only have 3 more assignments to do and 2 of them haven't even been due yet. haha. Then I just need to take the 2 exams I missed, and I'm good to go!

Also, after school gets out Michael and I are moving to Santaquin, UT. We're not sure for how long yet though. So far our contract will only be from May to August. We first decided to stay because his dad is getting married at the end of June! That's exciting, but we also talked about it, and we might think about staying here for another year. Especially if he doesn't get into the school he wants. That gives us a little extra time to save up all the money we need to move. It's expensive! And then maybe I can finish my minors. :D We'll see though. Nothing is set in stone, so nobody get their hopes up... or down.

Well things have been chugging along. Sorry to anyone who's been trying to get ahold of us. Our sleep schedule has gotten so messed up that going to bed at midnight feels like I'm trying to go to bed at about 5 pm. Kinda annoying. So we usually
end up asleep at around 4 am instead. Hopefully that changes soon. Really soon.

I think that's it. Maybe I'll update a little faster next time.

Hopefully soon I can catch a bigger smile. :D