The End...

Wow. April 2nd was the last time I posted and it seems like it should still be February. This is hard. A lot harder than I anticipated it would. All year long I have been complaining about wanting to go home, and now I am. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about that. I'm completely excited to be with my friends again. I want to see Frau and Smith-Cotton. The other night I fell asleep in the shower and I dreamed that I was at Bothwell Lodge. Sad eh? 

Leaving has become a lot harder than I thought it would be though. I wish that I could go home and then when I came back everything would be the same. Everyone here has someone to be with next semester. Everyone else made friends. I know that I will still be friends with Tikla and Kathryn, but I also know that it won't be anything like it was this year. They are probably going to be best friends with their new roommates. They actually know their new roommates. I don't even know if I have roommates. Ugh. Everyone has someone now that I think of it. Tikla has Jessica, Kathryn has Breeanne (spelling?, uh... who cares), Christine has Dani, and Kate has Camille. I guess I'm still having some difficulty seeing this as "I just didn't want to live with you." instead of "I just don't want you in my life." Because to me it seems like no one cares as much as I do that this is our last week as roommates in 142 M. Smith Hall. We don't even have a picture of all of us, so as of next Thursday it will be as if nothing happened.

Ending things is hard. I wish I had prepared myself a little better than I have. I have been ignoring this for a while, and now I think I'm having a break down. If not now then soon. I've got pretty much everything I own in boxes right now. Boxes that scream "You are never coming back, and nothing will ever be the same." Everyone is so excited for summer, and I guess I am too, I just know that someday I will have to come back and end up being really lonely.

Ok. I think I'm done being emo about this. The next time I post I will probably be back at home. Bored to death. Wow, I'm zoning out a lot right now. It looks like it's going to storm a lot. I hope it's huge. I need something to zone out to. When I go home we'll be in tornado season, so I hope I don't miss all the excitement. I already missed a 5.0 earthquake. Ok, so that wasn't really in Sedalia, but it was about 3 hours away. I shouldn't be this into natural disasters. 

I should probably do something productive now. I have plenty of things to do

Year one at BYU...the end.