Lessons I've learned at BYU

1. God is WAY smarter than me

2. Close to nothing will work out the way you plan, but it always works out

3. Learning occurs more often outside the classroom

4. Sometimes to be happy you have to learn to face fears

5. Being trusted is more important than being loved

6. Sometimes choosing the right hurts

7. Sometimes you have to close window to open a door

8. There is no such thing as "normal"

9. Striving for perfection is demoralizing; striving for excellence is empowering

10. No matter how difficult life gets, the important thing is to live it with hope

E'en the Past Enjoy II

"For he lives twice who can at once employ

The present well, and e'en the past enjoy."

-Alexander Pope

Yes, it's hard to see a beautiful day end. Sometimes it's hard to believe that there will ever be a day as beautiful as the last. My tree lost its leaves, my sun set, and my book ended, and it's true that maybe this day wasn't as beautiful as the last. Maybe my tree didn't have as many leaves as it did the year before... maybe my book didn't end happily. This time. 

But once again I am watching my tree lose its leaves; I'm watching my sun set; and yes, I'm reading the last page of that book. And I've learned a lot, and I will never be the same because of this place.  It helped me grow and learn about myself, my relationship with people, but most of all my relationship with God. But as I watch the leaves fall from this tree, the sun setting... I can't help but feel a peace. No matter what, everything will work out. It may not be how I planned, but "life's what happens when you're busy making other plans" right? The most important thing I learned here is that no matter what the circumstances, there is always hope. There is always a light shining in the darkness. "Even in the darkness every color can be found." I've learned to find those colors, and not dwell on the darkness. At least for the most part. 

So... now on to another book. I'll tell you how this one ends.

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So yesterday was supposed to be my worst day. I hadn't studied for this test that I HAD to take then, and I was freaking out. I kept saying, "I'm going to fail" and this time I wasn't joking. So I go to class (the one for the test) and Dr. Brown tells us that because he made a typo we only have to do 25 points instead of thirty. The test is set up kinda funny, but trust me that's a good thing. Then he said that if our grade on the paper is higher than either test he'll replace our test with our paper grade!!!! AHHHH! So yeah... that was good.

Then I stayed up until 2 the night before (not regrettably though because I had a fanstastic night) and got the programs done for the talent show but since I had to add/delete people I couldn't print them until after work. So I as I was stressing to get that done, I was checking my voicemails and Robyn had called to tell me that someone wants my contract!!!!! YAY!! So now I've already called Belmont and they said they have contracts, and I'm on my way... hopefully. I haven't actually talked to that girl and so I don't know if that's going to work out yet. Wish me luck!

So anyway, one of my worst days also ended up being one of my best. It's funny how things like that seem to happen. 

I will now stop telling you about random days in the life of Candice Nicole Burk, and begin writing that paper that definitely needs to be better than that test. I know for a FACT that I'm going to need it. I also know for a FACT that it's not going to be hard to beat the score I got on that test. A baby could probably do it. haha. 

Come What May, and Love It

This was an amazing talk, and while everyone is thinking that I should be focusing on the part about having hope and how eventually everything will be better, that was not the part that stood out to me. I already know everything won't be this way forever, and yes, it hurts now, but I know I will have so much more happiness because of it. This is what stood out to me:

"How can we love days that are filled with sorrow? We can't--at least not in the moment. I don't think my mother was suggesting that we suppress discouragement or deny the reality of pain. I don't think she was suggesting that we smother unpleasant truths beneath a cloak of pretend happiness. But I do believe that the way we react to adversity can be a major factor in how happy and successful we can be in life." Elder Joseph B Wirthlin

Thank you Elder Wirthlin. Thank you for telling me that it's ok to cry. That it's ok to feel pain. That it's ok to be disappointed. Because it seems I'm told a lot that it's a sin to be hurt by others or be disappointed in them. Now I can just let myself feel and not feel bad because I'm being selfish or a brat. Because "pain is pain, and it doesn't matter how you're heart gets broken... it still hurts." I love our leaders. And I love my Heavenly Father for knowing what I needed to hear. 

Yet another thought from the girl who blogs too much...

I mostly think of people as puzzle pieces. Some fit with others, and then some don't fit at all. Some fit a little but you have to shove really hard, and even then there are little gaps, and the big picture doesn't really match up. Sometimes you find puzzle pieces that belong to a different puzzle. Sometimes you are missing pieces. And then finally after much searching you find two pieces that fit perfectly and the big picture becomes a little more clear. And with each fit the picture slowly becomes more beautiful. 

Letter to the Broken Hearted

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I know that you're hurt

I know that you're scared

I know it's hard to believe 

That anyone really cares.

But I do.

I know you want to talk

I see your silent tears

I know you think I'll judge

the reason behind your fears

But I won't

I know your heart is broken

I know you don't know why

I know you think it's silly

that you always want to cry

But I don't

Right now you say you need me

So I am here for you

I know you think I'm busy

That I have better things to do

But I don't

I know no one will listen

I've been there once as well

I know no one will understand

That right now you're in hell

But I will

I won't be here to critique

I won't be here to mend

I won't be here to be rational

I won't be here to defend

I'll just sit and hold you

Like no one else will do

I'll listen without words

I'll just be here with you

Yours with Love Always

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November 4, 2009

So it's been over a year since I've started my blog. Huh. I wonder if I've changed any? Well next year I want to know if I've changed, so in this post I'm going to put some stuff about my self, and see if anything changes in a year. 

Favorites:

Music:

Freckles-Natasha Bedingfield

Happy-Melenie Smith

Say It's Possible-Terra Naomi

Movies:

Pride and Prejudice (any version, recently it's been the mormon version)

Sound of Music

It's been over a year since I stopped watching PG 13 movies, and I've only watched two since then. haha. Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 and Music and Lyrics

Books:

Twilight series (sadly I guess, but I like them)

anything by Jack Weyland

Food:

Allison's eclair dessert mmmm...

Mashed potatoes

Tomato soup with crushed cheese Pringles in it... yeah I'm weird

Color:

blue

Friends:

Monie (just had a baby), Hannah (is due in April, got married in June), Kat-ryn (is awesome), Tikla (just got into a relationship with Austin (October). I hope she doesn't mind me mentioning that lol)

Roommates: 

BDA 30 with Robyn and Allison

School:

Brigham Young University, Psychology major and I LOVE IT!

Work:

BYU Bookstore, Candy Department and I don't love it. I stock things in the Twilight Zone.

Weather:

Rainy... all the time. It just snowed in the mountains. It's been cold cause it's rainy, but to me it really isn't that bad. I don't need a coat very often.

Gas:

Here in Provo, UT it's $2.55, but in Sedalia, MO it's $1.95! It hasn't been that low in a REALLY long time.

Boys:

I stopped writing Justin, but he just sent me an email, so we'll see where that goes.

History:

Today is the presidential election. It's between John McCain (R) and Barack Obama (D). I'm pretty sure Obama is going to win, and I'm also very sure that's not a good thing. Barack Obama is an African American which will definitely make history no matter what, and John McCain's VP is Sarah Palin which is weird because she's a woman. Also, during the primaries, Mitt Romney (a mormon) was actually doing pretty well until he dropped out.

So I guess I'm weird, but I'm curious to see how many of these things are different around this time next year. I guess we'll see. 

It's Possible :'(

I see the lights are turning
And i look outside the stars are burning
Through this changing time
It could have been anything we want
Its fine salvation was just a passing thought.

Dont wait act now
This amazing offer wont last long
Its only a chance to pave the path were on
I know there are more exciting things to talk about
And in time well sort it out

And though they say its possible to me
I dont see how its probable
I see the course were on
Spinning farther from what i know
Ill hold on
Tell me that you wont let go
Tell me that you wont let go

And truth is such a funny thing
With all these people
Keep on telling me
They know whats best
And what to be frightened of
And all the rest are wrong
They know nothing about us

And though they say its possible to me
I dont see how its probable
I see the course were on
Spinning farther from what i know
Ill hold on
Tell me that you wont let go
Tell me that you wont let go

Im not alright

This could be something beautiful
Combine our love into something wonderful
But times are tough i know
And the pull of what we cant give up takes hold